i am a busy person....
i am a person that surrounds herself with others.
for many reason actually
i genuinely enjoy their company, i like laughing with them, i like helping them and caring for them, i get my energy from them, and i don't like being alone.
its boring and dull.....
i keep a busy schedule.
up at 7
work at 8:30
dinner at 6ish
evening activity at church til 9'ish
bible study
hanging with friends
i like it..... i enjoy it.
well God gave me a rude awakening.
he took it from me.
my schedule. my activities. my peeps.
gone.
vanished.
suddenly i had time..... LOTS of time.
it makes me squirm.
it makes me uncomfortable.
i don't like having time.
it makes me think about the hard stuff.....
with no distractions there is no choice but to deal with it.
well i just went thru one of those times....
those down times when i had time to think.
those times when things seem unsettled and a little slow
i realized something.
- scratch that -
God taught me/reminded me of something....
life the way HE intended is not complicated!
stop leaning on myself
stop leaning on friends
stop leaning on family
stop filling it with church
stop filling it with houses and cars and jobs
stop leaning on my dog (pathetic huh?)
lean on HIM.
i am the happiest when i focus on Him.
i am at ease with me when i am with Him.
fill it with prayer and study.
slowly the happiness comes back....
the sense of humor returns.
i find rest in that.
i dont have the answers..... but i'm not going to focus on that.
i am choosing to focus on LOVING HIM
and becoming like him (Ephesians 5:17)
i am choosing to focus on sharing the love of Jesus with others and on
telling others about Him as often and as frequently as possible.
thats what i want from my life.
that isnt complicated.
its simple and complete.
i can rest and find peace in that.
thank you for so much.... but most of all thank you for loving me and being patient with me.
